my heart feels like it’s getting ripped apart. tears roll down my cheeks… while watching a drama.
what’s wrong with me.. i don’t usually cry while watching dramas or movies. well i tear up.. but i was watching God Of Study and Pulip’s mom just basically abandoned her. i didn’t tear.. i started crying.. i don’t cry that easily.
i feel confused. my chest feels heavy. it’s hard for me to breath. i feel like shit. all these tears that i prevented from coming out are just waiting to roll down my face. what’s going on..
you’re a fucking drama queen…. asking me if i wrote that on her formspring? do you honestly think i’m that kind of fucking shallow bitch to write that on someone’s formspring? i’m not fucking retarded. what the fuck am i to you.. am i your friend? fuck that.. if i was truly your friend you would’ve trusted me the first time around when i said no.
and you were the one asking me that question. texted me at fucking 1 in the morning and woke me up. you honestly think i’d be happy with waking up to that shit? and on top of that, you fucking give me that attitude?
if she has a formspring expect hater comments idiot. it’s anonymous so obvoiusly people’ll take advantage of that. but i’m not that kind of fucking person to do that. I HAVE A LIFE and i’m not as fucking immature as those kind of people AND you.
oh and also.. don’t fucking expect me or another friend who cares about you to have written that.. we’re older & MUCH more mature than you are. you keep pushing those who care about you aside for the stupidest shit. grow the fuck up and think before you fucking speak. you’re so fucking blinded right now you can’t see the other good things you’re throwing away.
clear your head. instead of being fucking selfish and think about yourself, look at it from my shoes. look at how you’re treating me. you honestly think i’m that kind of person? you have much more to learn about me or anyone else. when people give you advice or when they give you their insight and tells you TRUTHFULLY about your situation or whatever, that means they care about you & are looking out for you. you choose not to even bother listening to us i bet. it goes through one ear and out through the other. stubborn. and you didn’t ask for my help? that didn’t make sense dumbass.. cuz i wasn’t trying to helping you, i was caring for you. and on top of that, clearing my fucking name that apparently is screwed up in your head.
and it’s not that i dont’ like her. we’re friends.. did you know that? i don’t go around friend’s formsprings and talk shit about them like that in front of their face “anonymously”
this is the end. i can’t take your shit anymore. you chose to only have one person in your life than have multiple. tch this is my last straw… i guess you have to learn the hard way. goodbye.
haha PERFECTTTTT song for the movie i’m making for school. so i have a tv studio class at my school, and we’re making a movie.. instead of boring segments for the school’s channel.. blegh
SO my teacher gave us an idea and i built off of it. he said that everyone’s differenet. we all have different personalities. he wanted us to make an abstract film. well it’s sort of abstract? with a story along with it. so each person basically has their own personality/music. and then it’ll all blend together to make a song. idk i’ll definitely get this one up on youtube :)
augh but i’m in it… why do i get myself into this kind of things? alright so here are the characters: - cocky, he’s.. popular i guess? loved by everyone. - romantic type - daydreamer - badass <— me - shy, emotional, studious - cool.. has a swagger when he walks
yeah so i have to be badass slash gangster… WHY I GET MYSELF INTO THESE KINDS OF THINGS.. idk i hate being in front of the camera at the sametime i don’t mind..?
oh and also. i came up wiht a DJ.. the DJ basically controls the music, which is the whole movie. and i’ll be playing the DJ part too. but i won’t be showing my face. :P shhhh
we’ll see how it comes out. JUST YOU WAITTT :D director geena chung is at work.